And in a way, I guess things were. I mean, I wasn't living with my parents anymore. I inherited two roommates and an apartment. I no longer had to tell my parents where I was going, with who, or for how long. I suppose those were pretty big changes. Not to mention the fact that I left many of my friends behind, which consequently left space for new friends to come in.
People in college are certainly different than in high school. The atmosphere is much more relaxed-you don't have to go to class if you don't want to. No two people ever seem to be on the same schedule. Eat whenever you want to and however much you want to (but watch out for the freshman 15!).
In a way, college has been a very freeing experience.
One thing that I expected was to have some miraculous shift in my relationship with God. Don't ask me why I thought this was going to happen, I just assumed it would. I mean, here I was being the good Christian, following God in college. For some reason I thought that meant I was better than other people. That somehow I deserved special privileges. Obviously, I was quite wrong. I'm not going to lie, walking with God in college is a lot harder than I imagined. It's hard to get motivated to go to church on Sunday when I would rather sleep. It's hard to get up early enough to actually do a devotional before I get going for the day. Yet I still do these things because I believe that they are the only way to ensure that I don't stagnate in my growth. This year has been eye opening because I have really had to work on trusting God and walking by faith and not sight. It's tempting to only follow God when things are going great. I have had to learn that my relationship with God is not based on what I feel but rather the fact that he is God and he has great plans for my life.
The other night I was listening to "I Believe in Love" by Barlow Girl and the chorus really spoke to me:
I believe in the sun even when its not shining
I believe in love even when I don't feel it
And I believe in God even when he is silent
2 comments:
this is beautiful!
I'm glad you were able to figure that out :)
it's the same for me a lot too, but I think ultimately going to college has made my relationship with God even stronger! and I think that's awesome.
love you!
kbizzle
very nice my dear :)
i can't wait till next year! then we can all be strong christians together :)
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